Today I was told that I was selfish and that although I "love" my daughter that I apparently resent her and that she is picking up on this "vibe" and that is why she behaves as she does. I was told that I am feeding her the wrong things, that I am not allowing her to make her own decisions and that I have her in the wrong school.
I tried to explain that while it was easy to sit on the outside and say what was being done wrong that this person was not the one who's house, bank accounts, and emotions were being trampled on everyday. I was told that this proved that I was not putting MACs welfare before my own. Of course in the next breath I was told that I needed to take care of myself. I cried off and on for the rest of the evening after this conversation.
This evening MAC and I spent 2 and a half hours working on homework and trying to organize her school binder. We skipped the Girl Scout meeting and Glee. I found this song while I was looking for Casting Crowns and think the lyrics are exceptionally appropriate: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KznLRXLBxno
I would like it on the record that I do love my child and I want the best for her. The world requires certain behaviors and I am trying to impress upon her what those behaviors are.
I am not sure who told you all that, but it is in fact easier to sit on the sidelines and judge if you don't have to live it every single day. As mothers we do the best we can with what we have at that moment. Even if any of it turns out to be the wrong decisions, I truly know that you have had nothing but the best intentions and did your absolute best with what you have. MAC will look back on all this one day and know that, you did everything out of love and what you believed was in her best interest. We can always second guess ourselves but frankly I think is pretty ignorant for someone to do it for you.
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